Inspired by Jenny (Gina Rodriguez) monologue: “Somewhere between then and now, here and there- I guess we didn’t just grow apart…we grew up. When something breaks, if the pieces are large enough you can fix it. Unfortunately, sometimes things don’t break. They shatter. But when you let the light in, shattered glass will glitter. And in those moments- when the pieces of what we were catch the sun- I’ll remember just how beautiful it was. Just how beautiful it will always be. Because it was us. And we were magic. Forever.”
Her–
you don’t know how much you hurt me…
Those words you degraded me consistently in the mirror…
You couldn’t bring yourself to say a single compliment instead
You couldn’t bring yourself to say something affirmational to raise my broken and battered spirits.
Why?? we stood side by side
It was me and you against the world
Somewhere along the way, it became me against you and the world.
Sometimes I wonder how far the dagger can still penetrate a wounded heart
How far are you still willing to go?
Until I’m bloody to a pulp?
Until I can’t seem to distinguish my up from down?
Herself–
She will never understand how free she is
She will never have to deal with the crap of the world
The self-deprecation, the humiliation, the whirlwind of comparisons
Instead, she is always living with her head in the clouds
But…
I am her reality check
I am her dagger of reality
I am the thing she will always cry to sleep
Cry so that she can change
I am her source of reason from the childlike wonder she never seems to release from…
Her–
Hearing you speak
Hearing you admit this…about us makes me see that somewhere along the way we lost track of each other
We both deviated into two different paths
We splintered and shattered
We became the things we couldn’t stand
One with her head in the clouds
The other ready to strike the first punch at herself
How exhausting that must’ve been for you
I’m sorry
We grew up and I’m ready to let that part of me go
Because you were once me and I am ready to be rid of that part of you
You were me and I once loved you!
you were the greatest but it is now time to acknowledge the thorns and the harm we gave to each other
Herself–
I’m sorry…
I never thought we could be whole again
I miss you and I once loved unconditionally
But I think this is the right thing for you and me
We were once beautiful
We gleamed
We shone in the sunlight
But now I am me and you are you
You will always be the beautiful girlie with her head in the clouds and her heart in her dreams
Never lose that
I’m sorry for making you believe you had to