It’s true. I am in a relationship with school. It takes up all my time, like a boyfriend would. It screws me over sometimes, a like a boyfriend would. It has no respect for my personal time, like a boyfriend does. And yet, school makes me want to be something, like a boyfriend would. It makes me want to show off what I have learned in the most positive ways, like a boyfriend would. It makes proud when I have accomplished sometime I thought I could not, like a boyfriend would. School is always there for me when I feel like giving up, like a boyfriend would be.
It’s remarkable how an educational institution can be so closely related to the frustrations and love given by a significant other.
Why do I have this feeling? Well, it’s because I have made school my boyfriend. I depend on it for reassurance that I am doing the right thing, as well as looking to it to keep me in line.
I have given up on trying to fight growing up, and I am throwing in my towel. I am throwing in my towel not as a sign of weakness, but rather as a sign that I am ready to commit to bettering myself by working hard at my academics.
In relationships, it is key to realize that one day you are going to hate waking up next to your significant other; everything they do is going to rub you completely wrong. And other days you are going to wake up and feel grateful that someone is willing to put up with you. It is an unpredictable, emotional roller coaster.
There are days that I wake up and I consider giving up. School is overwhelming me and I cannot do it anymore. I am annoyed with the thought of my class line-up. Everything about school makes me feel small and unappreciated. More times than not, I have fought this idea; telling myself that I can do it, I just have to push through.
However, some days I wake up and I feel like I can take on the entire campus along with its problems. I have a sense of pride knowing that I never gave up on my goals. I end the day with a smile. I realize how lucky I am to be getting all this, all this that is college.
So I guess, like a relationship, you have to keep your head up. There are going to be bad days, and some of those days are going to be really bad. There are going to be good days too, and those days are what will make you feel lucky to have college there for you in your life.