This article is written by a student writer from the Her Campus at BU chapter.

If you watched Ben Higgins give out his final rose on The Bachelor Season 20 finale Monday night, we know exactly what you were feeling—we were feeling it too. Monday night’s episode was full of surprising, cringe-worthy, and heart-pounding moments as Ben made his final decision between the two women he loved, Lauren and JoJo. Here are some of our thoughts:

1. When Ben sent JoJo home, telling her he loves her, but loves someone else more:

2. When Ben called Lauren’s dad and asked for his blessing to propose:

3. When Ben’s hometown pastor came all the way from Indiana and stood for three hours waiting to see if Ben and Lauren wanted to get married during After the Final Rose…and then they decided to wait:

4. When Chris Harrison says this will be “the most dramatic season finale yet:”

5. When Ben proposed to Lauren—not just once—but again, in front of both of their families during After the Final Rose:

6. When you thought you wouldn’t get to watch JoJo anymore on Monday nights, and then Chris Harrison announces her as the next Bachelorette:

7. When Ben closed the show by thanking Bachelor Nation for all their love and support:

8. When the show’s most disliked bachelor tweeted this after the show…

No offense Juan Pablo, but you could probably sit this one out.

8 Things We Felt When Watching the Bachelor Season Finale