I had an asymmetrical cut for the first two and a half years of high school but cut it to one length – a short one – in the second half of my junior year, and I have been growing it out ever since. Any hair cut I have received since then was only for the purposes of trimming off the dead ends or styling my bangs. I constantly had this anxiety surrounding the idea of cutting my hair short again. Not really sure why; I just do.
Right now, I am beginning the “Curly Girl Journey” and embracing the fact that I have wavy/curly hair. That means I’m not using heat on it anymore. I’m using more styling products. And, in general, I’m taking better care of my hair and its many needs. The only issue with it right now is that my hair is so long that my curls are not able to fully form because gravity is pulling them down. Add the fact that there are more than four years of heat and friction damage, and my hair isn’t at peak curliness. A true tragedy.
That being said, I am at a crossroads. My hair is a lovely length, reaching my mid-back. I look just like Moana, which is kind of a goal for me! But now I really want to pursue a life with curls. I have no idea what to do now besides cutting my hair. And that little thought just…
Freaks.
Me.
Out.
To no end. On the one hand, having long hair is so luxurious and amazing. Soooo many styles to try. On the other hand, having long hair means it gets caught in things (e.g. windows, doors, etc.), and I honestly don’t have time to do much with my hair, so it often goes into a bun. What do I do?
I think I’m going to wait until after Halloween, so I can live out my dream of being Moana, and then I’ll give my hair the Big Chop. It’s something I want to speak into existence to force me to make this commitment. Will I? Only time will tell. Between now and then, I will talk myself into and out of this idea, glorifying the length while wishing the curls would look better.