Being a Chicana, or a Chicano, means being of Mexican descent and being born in the United Statesâitâs choosing an identity that is not âHispanicâ or âLatino.â Itâs being divided between two cultures and opposing identities and these are our struggles:
It means never feeling good enoughâ for either side
Because we were not born in Mexico and most of us usually visit during the summers, we are not âMexicanâ enough for Mexicans. Because we grew up in the United States, adapting to American culture and traditions, we are not seen as 100% âMexican.â We can never be âAmericanâ enough for Americans because we still have our roots and traditions running through our veinsâand the color of our skin. As Selena Quintanillaâs father in the film âSelenaâ says, âitâs exhausting.â Yes, keeping up with two entirely different identities while making sure not to dig too deep into either is exhausting.
Being asked, âWhere are you from?â âBut, where are you really from?â
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The question we usually get when people arenât satisfied when we answer that weâre born from somewhere in the U.S. Iâve been guessed every nationality besides my very own. And then thereâsâŠ
âBut you donât look Mexican.â
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The most famous comment most of us receive after people ask us where our parents are from because theyâre not satisfied with our first answer. We may not look the way everyone expects us to (typical stereotypes like being short or wearing a poncho and sombrero). We come in all different shapes, sizes, colors; you name it.
People automatically think we speak Spanish
People (usually Hispanics) will criticize that some of us arenât fluent in Spanish, others will ask us to translate really hard words into Spanish for them (Iâm talking about our gringo amigos). Itâs a language barrier, yes. But. . .
We speak the best Spanglish though.
 âOh, what do you think about Trump?â
âTheyâre bringing drugs. Theyâre bringing crime. Theyâre rapists. And some, I assume, are good people.â
â President Donald Trump
Now, the most-asked-about question we receive since 2016. Just donât. Unless you really want to know.
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Chicana and proud
Being Chicana, or Mexican American, can leave you feeling invisible sometimes, but itâs truly a beautiful mess. Itâs a gift in which we get to experience the best of both worlds. We celebrate Halloween and DĂa De Los Muertos, and we eat carne asadas and hamburgers. In this cultural intersection, we hail from rich and colorful roots full of history and weâre born into soil thatâs filled with endless opportunities and freedom. We are not trying to be white, nor are we trying to get rid of our Mexican values. We are simply trying to be proud of both our cultural identities. We create our own belonging and familiarity through our opposing identities. We are Chicanos. We carry our home with us where ever we go. Viva la raza.
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