Let me start out by saying thank you, dear. I’ve finally gotten to a point in my life where I have battled and fought with the insecurities and am finally happy in my own skin. Finding comfort within the confines of my own body was a struggle for a very long time. I used to be the kind of girl who could only dream about guys like you. I used to be the girl who would awkwardly sit out of everything out of fear of being rejected. After the long wrestle with everything inside myself that was telling me I wasn’t good enough, I have found peace and joy with everything I am. I now have the ability to have fun and laugh in a group setting. I know what my comfort zone is and I work to expand it every day. I realize my own importance and worth. I know that I matter. So thank you for seeing all the good in me and realizing that I am worth keeping around.
In my life thus far, I have been on a journey to find someone who I also think is worth keeping around. That journey has led me to a few frogs. I realize now that those frogs were meant to be exactly that. They were put in my life for a reason, and it was to lead me closer to the one whom I will choose to love each day of my life, repeatedly, over and over.
For many reasons, you happen to be the man that has stood out from the rest of the crowd. I hand-picked you out of a sea of potential forevers. If you were to ask me why, I could go on for days. Ultimately, I would tell you that you are the one who makes me smile. You are the one who can bring rosy red color to my cheeks with nothing but a wink or the flash of your smile. You are the one who gives me the uneasy and yet exhilarating feeling in my stomach. My eyes see only you at this point in time. The potential forevers have turned into one potential forever, and it’s you.
Now let me just say that having my sights set on someone who makes me happy and I would like to keep around is rarer than it should be. I hold any potential love interest to a standard, and it’s pretty high up there. I expect certain things from you, like good manners, ambition, the ability to communicate, etc. These are characteristics that you not only have, but have a lot of. You have met and surpassed the items on the checklist, which is why out of everyone, I choose you and will keep choosing you.
I want to remind you again that my eyes are experiencing some tunnel vision. It seems as if other people pass by me all the time and I don’t see them. You are the one I want and the one I see. Now to say that you are in any way not deserving of a woman like me would be an insult to the standard I hold myself to. If you were just a guy who was lacking compassion, dreams, or redeeming qualities, then we wouldn’t be in this position. I would have looked you over without a second thought because I deserve better than that.
You, however, my darling, give me a reason and I will wait for you. I see the man you are. I see you. I see all of you. I see the small hints of yellow in your eyes and the countless freckles that cover your body. I see everything you are and I am still here, waiting eagerly for when you can see it all too. Waiting for you to see that you are a catch, and not just some bass, but a top dollar salmon. Waiting for you to see yourself in the way I see you, not as perfect, but as someone who has lived enough to make mistakes, and whose imperfections make them more attractive.
Again, thank you for seeing me as someone who shouldn’t settle for anything less than they deserve. Thank you for the times we have spent together and the memories we have made. Thank you for just being you; the charming, intelligent, sexy, and deserving man who is worthy of every bit of my attention and love.
XOXO
The Girl Who Realizes Her Worth, But Also Sees Yours