It’s that time of year again… When you suddenly are trying to push yourself to accomplish last minute goals, trying to manage everything on a weird time frame without knowing what your next move will be come summer. Everyone has felt stuck, complacent, and like they weren’t in a terrible place, but they weren’t happy either. I have been trying to convince myself that I can’t let this weird moment in my life where I feel like I don’t know what’s next affect me.
I have healed, I have let go, I have forgiven, I have separated myself from distractions and anything that will cause me to lose focus on what I’m trying to get done. I have isolated myself, I have suppressed emotions by becoming too busy to deal with the problems I’m facing. I have listened to Cranes in the Sky so much that I became the lyrics.I have indulged in every distraction, every coping mechanism, and every outlet just looking for peace and reassurance. To those who feel like your best isn’t enough, that God is trying you a little harder than you would like, that life is just taking it’s course and you’re going through the motions, just remember that it will be worth it in the end. If anything was easy for you to obtain everyone would have it, if you don’t go through any type of hardship or tough situation to reach happiness you won’t appreciate the value of it.
Sometimes God puts his best soldiers in the most difficult battles because He knows that we don’t fold under pressure. He didn’t have average, complacent and unmotivated in mind when you were created. You’re special so you have to go through things that set you apart from the crowd.
Never feel like you don’t have it all together, take the time to compliment yourself and your progress because you are further than where you were yesterday and happier than you were last year so that in itself is a blessing. Don’t let your current circumstance determine who you are, or where you will go. All of this is a process and some of us get finished before others, but that doesn’t mean anyone is better, it simply means God had a different story in mind when creating them.
We need to stop comparing our Chapter 1 to other people’s second book. We won’t have the same scene, plot, or protagonist, so comparing your lives to others who aren’t even doing what you want to do in life does nothing but make you unhappy and bitter. It’s okay to be happy for someone else’s accomplishments; just because you don’t have everything together doesn’t mean you have to look down on or compare your progress to other people.
God hasn’t given up on you, you have been going through all of this because there is a silver lining. God is about to do some wonderful things in your life, He is about to show up and show out. You have been getting beat by life ever since 2017 started and you’re probably confused and getting frustrated and ready to just end the year, but you still have time, God usually holds out on your blessing until He knows that you’re in a place to receive it and appreciate it. He won’t bless you if you’re unsure, in the midst of trouble or hanging around bad company.
Don’t ever feel like you can’t go on, that you aren’t needed, that you can just quit because there is no point. There is – you have people rooting for you, people who want you to win and this is all just a temporary feeling. You have to make it through the bad days to enjoy the good ones, don’t give up!
I hate feeling like I have so much to offer but I’m not giving my all to everything and everyone around me, I hate to feel like I’m just existing like I don’t have a purpose or like there isn’t more to me and more in what I want to do in life, because there is. Just like there is more for you to do, accomplish, and get through. So get up, get motivated, get focused and get in your bag sis.
-Yinde