We have reached that time of year where you begin to realize those upperclassman you once befriended for their charming advice and experience in college now have a month left of the fever dream that is college. And as the real world comes hurdling towards them, you find comfort in summer and weekends in the future, but that does not quiet the worry that instates as you begin to realize a two minute drive to them will now be much longer.
And while I am beyond excited to watch them flourish, the selfish part of me cannot help but mourn for the lost people in my final year of college.
I have done it once and I am sure I will again. Friends come and go, not out of choice, but because that is life. You will not always live with your best friends. You will not always get to strategically choose your class schedule to work around movie nights and dance. And you certainly will not always get to spend every waking hour of the day with the people you love most.
A hard pill to swallow, absolutely. But that is the price you pay when attaching yourself to a senior. So, as this final month plays out, I am choosing to live. I am choosing to be present in every moment, from gym days to Starbucks runs. Opening shifts at work and literally living at the dance studio. It all seems so minuscule and unimportant in the moment, but I know next semester, when I am going through my daily routine, I am going to be so thankful I enjoyed this month.
So, to the girl this article is really about. I love you Laura. I love our routine. I love that in a few short months we have gotten to know each other more then I could have ever imagined. I love that we are constantly on the same page, even when unspoken. I love that you have made me a better person in a thousand different ways. I love that every time I listen to Taylor Swift’s “Gorgeous” I will immediately think of you. I love the phrases you have gotten stuck in my head and I love our finger guns infinitely.
So thank you for the peace you have brought me. It is not everyday you meet a fellow college student that enjoys early mornings and the gym as much as you do. And while I fear for the shock I am going to experience when I am suddenly back to doing my routine alone, I am so incredibly grateful for the time I got you for.
And to those of you who have a Laura in your life right now, hold on to them, because I know I sure am.
HCXO, Gabby