Two years ago today, the most anticipated film of 2019 hit theaters. That’s right, Avengers: Endgame is celebrating its second birthday … HOW?! I feel like this movie just came out, and my friends and I were prepared for three hours of complete heartbreak. Anyways, following the utterly shocking and tear-jerking story that is Avengers: Infinity War, I was so not prepared for what I was about to witness.
Now, I saw this movie the day before, so for me, two years ago today, I was in my house sobbing my eyes out, still not over what I had witnessed. From Doctor Strange portalling everyone to the battle, to Natasha and Tony sacrificing themselves, I’m pretty sure the theater could hear me wailing the entire time. Also, the music adds to the emotional level, which, of course, made me cry even harder, so thank you so much for the pain, Marvel!
I don’t know why, but I’m listening to “Even for You” right now, which is the song that plays during the soul stone sacrifices (pain) in Avengers: Infinity War and Avengers: Endgame. I thought it would put me in the mood I was in before the release of Endgame, but I’m just sitting here in tears. Ugh, this song gets me every single time!
Thinking back on this time of my life definitely makes me emotional. I know some will think I’m weird or crazy, but my entire life revolves around the MCU and Marvel Comics. I grew up with these stories and became attached to these characters because they provided me with incredible life lessons and strengths that I never thought I had. They gave me confidence in myself and offered me a safe space when things got tough at school or home. This franchise full of extraordinary superheroes was my source of happiness, and it allowed me to make more friends than I could’ve ever imagined.
So, having to say goodbye to so many of my comfort characters was tough, I won’t lie. However, I think their endings were the perfect send-off, clearly since I left the theater with a splotchy face, red eyes, never-ending tears, and a brewing migraine which felt as if someone was hammering away at my brain.
Looking back on my time and the excitement I felt every time a story was being brought to life is very nostalgic. Those were some good times in my life, and I definitely miss the anticipation of either a new tale or a continuation. However, I am more than ready to enter a new saga of the MCU. After Endgame, I am more than okay with leaving most of those characters behind to open new doors for upcoming heroes to take the spotlight. From the Eternals to the Young Avengers, I am so ready to see their stories unfold on the big screen. But …. Doctor Strange still has my heart and is my #1 favorite Avenger, so I’m more than excited to see his character flourish in these next few years.
One last thing: the soul stone scene between Natasha and Clint … yeah, it should’ve been Clint.