In all honesty, I’ve been crying a lot.
I don’t like that sometimes I cry over things that my tears can no longer follow.
In all honesty, I’ve been laughing a lot.
I don’t like that I laugh to cover up my biggest heartbreaks.
In all honesty, I don’t like being honest.
I don’t like that the transparency I offer isn’t the transparency I receive.
My body hurts and I’m tired all the time.
I don’t like that my exhaustion is becoming more visible to others.
This isn’t a poem about crying or laughing or not being honest or my body hurting or being tired.
It’s about change.
I like that I’ve adjusted to more change than I expected myself to handle.
It’s about my progression.
My beautiful progression.
It’s about tying in the good with the bad.
I like that I am opening my heart wider to all things.
It’s about understanding that sunshine may come for two days and rain the next three.
I am embracing the sunshine whilst forgiving the rain.
It’s about knowing that trouble won’t last always.
It’s about transition.
My beautiful transition.
This is a new side, a new stage, a new level.
So I’m glad that I’ve been crying and laughing a lot.
I’m glad that my body hurts and I’m tired.
It means that I’m moving.
That I’m letting go and not stressing the small stuff.
And in all honesty, that’s alright with me.