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This article is written by a student writer from the Her Campus at MSU chapter.

I’m in a place where I feel like I really don’t belong

I scroll and see many posts and continue to prolong

I start to view my life in a way I haven’t before

Yet my feelings are hurt but I want to see more

The more I see and the more I reflect

The reflection in the mirror is the thing I regret

I want to be like them I silently say to myself

But I know it’s just a fantasy while battling my mental health

I try to cease the scrolling and the tapping of my fingers

But I failed to succeed and the negative emotions linger

At times I get this feeling that I’m an invisible ghost

As I compare my conventional life to others who post

When I finally get the strength to put down my phone

I get this depressing feeling that I’m all alone

I say upsetting things about myself that aren’t true 

I feel that no one knows what I really go through

So I go on social media and try to mimic the lives of others

There are still pieces in my life that I will never uncover

I can’t break this cycle or others may see the real me

I just want to be happy with who I am and to be free

I begin to feel numb as I excessively explore the web

It’s the same story over and over again about some influencer or celeb

The majority of social media is about posting things in their lives 

But the reality of social media is boasting because of pride 

I verbally abuse myself because I still compare my life to theirs

Even though I should know better because I am fully aware

But that doesn’t stop my mind from influencing my emotions

Creating upsetting mood swings that causes commotion

I wish I could stop but a part of me proceeds

I instantly regret doing it because I start to believe

Believing in the untrue words I tell myself everyday

I want the sorrow, hurt, and pain to all go away

If I was famous I know it will be a lot of pressure

To please others for the sake of their own pleasure

I’ll be happy as ever for receiving wonderful compliments

There would be many people who will troll me for my accomplishments

Things aren’t always pretty on the other side of the fence 

People have reckless tongues and at times can be really dense

I’ll try so hard to please everyone as much as I can 

But my feelings get hurt as I start to lose fans

No one knows my story and will never see my side

Because they’ll judge me anyway and believe its a lie

I can’t keep from wondering why some perceive me as a wannabe 

But I’ll keep holding on because there is someone out there who believes in me

I pressure myself to do things that make me uncomfortable

Because of the pressure of social media makes me feel vulnerable

I always thought that only others can bully you

But now I have realized that you can be the bully too

We all are victims of the way society is portrayed 

It’s up to us if we take a stand and change our ways

A man named Rosling has helped me see life differently

He discusses many instincts that people uses consistently

The Gap instinct divides us into categories we don’t deserve to be in 

The single perspective instinct doesn’t allow us to look at someone from within

The division between us is created by the ignorance of statements

Due to only trusting our instincts or someone else judgements

There are different sides to stories and we all have our own book

No one should think less of themselves and feel like their overlooked

Because we are all imperfectly unique and that is simply okay

Let’s not compare ourselves to others because we are beautiful in our own way

Kailah is a fourth-year student pursuing a B.S. in Neuroscience and minor in Cognitive Science at Michigan State University. She is obsessed with learning about the creation of earth science and the formation of health science. She has a passion for creating music compositions and performing on a variety of instruments. In her free time, she enjoys self-teaching herself how to play music arrangements on the piano, guitar, and the violin. Kailah gets her inspiration from watching many TV/Movie genres and enjoy playing video games. She also adores writing genuine articles and remarkable poetry that many individuals can relate to.