I have a rash I’ve been picking at since March
I know it’s probably nothing
All my friends and family agree
It’s just kinda gross looking
But what if it’s not?
What if it’s cancerous?
Or psoriasis?
I think I need to have a professional look at it.
But I don’t have a doctor willing to look at
A fucking rash
In the middle of a pandemic.
What I do have is plenty of time.
Time to think about why it’s that color
And how I did have a headache last week so it’s probably shingles
And how my great granny had that weird skin thing
And all the procedures that I’ll need if its toxic shock syndrome
And what my new life will be like with eczema.
What I need is something to stop this spiral
I’m falling further and further in.
But I don’t have that.