they tell me to not look back
“I’m not going that way”
they tell me to not look forward
“You can’t dwell on the past”
what shall I do?
right now is too hard
it hinges on the past
it forms what’s next
what shall I do?
the memories I have
keep me from forming
the memories I have
prevent me from victories
what shall I do?
the future I have
isn’t worth it without
the future I have
can I get there without
what shall I do?
my past and my future
all tied into now
my past and my future
can’t keep me grounded
what shall I do?
the memories keep flooding and it’s getting harder
the past is always haunting
the future is far and it’s always too hard
the future is always uncertain
what shall I do?
I’m struggling to concentrate
I’m struggling to breathe
I’m struggling too constantly
I’m struggling just to be
what shall I do?
what shall I do…
what shall I do.