You may not want to hear it, but you are more important to you than anyone else in your life. We’ve all heard that phrase, “In the end, all you have is yourself” by someone, I’m not sure who. In my experience, there’s always been a conflict over whether or not you should be completely available to your friends, and how people who aren’t there for you all the time aren’t your real friends.
No, no, no, those people are just being human beings with their own problems that they have to deal with, and who aren’t being paid by the hour to be your therapist, okay? Unless you’re paying for your friendships, then I’m sorry you have to live that way. But otherwise, give your friends a break if you feel like they’re ignoring you.
Being understanding is one of the most underrated things a person can be, and is greatly appreciated when it comes to the likes of me. I don’t always have time, especially now, to be there for my friends, and I always hope they know I love them and think they’re the greatest things to happen to me.
That’s okay. It’s okay to put yourself as first priority. I think it’s great that you spent some time with yourself and cooked dinner and had a nice shower and went to bed early. I’m jealous! There’s nothing more important than taking care of yourself above anything else.
Don’t get me wrong, I went through a period in high school where I put myself as nearly dead last priority. I hated when people told me, “You can’t love someone until you love yourself.” That’s hamster poop, love who you want when you want/are able to. Honestly, I didn’t love myself until quite recently. And I’ve loved plenty of people before that, it doesn’t make me incapable of love.
If you were looking for an excuse to pay more attention to yourself and your mental/physical needs, here it is. You do not owe anyone an explanation for anything, first and foremost because you are a human being and you deserve everything you can possibly achieve.
If anyone ever puts you down for being selfish or flaky or anything of the sort, tell them what’s what, and hope they respond positively. If they don’t, they’re not your friend. Either that, or it’s time for some enlightenment, your choice.