Dear Ex-Boyfriends,
I have not talked to the majority of you since the breakup because I didn’t want to stay friends with someone who hurt me so badly. So, I decided to write a letter to you all. I just wanted to thank you for all the horrible things you put me through. I know that this is not what you were expecting me to put in this letter. You expected me to send a tear soaked paper full of cuss words and resentment but I feel like our awful relationship made me a better person. Our relationship taught me to love myself, never settle, and find someone who cares about me.
As many of you preyed on, I sometimes have low self confidence. While a select group of you loved me for who I am, others would constantly pick away at what confidence I did have. From trying to tell me what to wear to telling me that I was dumb for saying something. After these relationships I eventually realized I do matter and that I am better than what you made me feel like. And to the ex who said that I would never find anyone who would treat me like you did, you were right, I have met a million guy who treats me way better than you ever did.
I think that some of the relationships I started just because you were the only one interested me, settling because I thought you were my only option. I soon realized this is why so many of my early relationships were so bad. I wish I could go back to high school me and tell her that in her sophomore year of college she obtained four dates in one week, and that there were hundreds of guys out there who would love dating her.
In the beginning of many of our relationships I felt so loved, but I guess that was just the honeymoon phase. After that stage, I thought we would just not hang out as much. One of you even decided to cheat when he was bored with me. That was one of the worst feelings in the world to me and I knew in that instant I wanted to find someone who genuinely cares about me and only me.
While I wish that I could go back in time and tell younger me what to avoid in guys I honestly would not. I learned such valuable lessons from all of you and eventually found the gentleman of my dreams. So again, thank you.
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Your now extremely happy ex,
Rachael
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