I miss you
And not the way someone misses someone who’s dead
I miss you because you’re still alive,
But I grieve the space you left instead
To someone I regarded as kin
To someone with whom everything was shared:
Makeup
Clothes and bras
Stories, memories
And everything else I’ve spared
I look back to the girl I was and the woman I am to be
I look back at the girl you were
I see parts of her in me.
Memories drift by of places
That you and I used to seek
Your shadow still remains
She stays inside me
I often think if God allowed me to rewrite
the stars
Would I trace that divine pen to where
Our paths
Would align,
At All?
I wish I could say no.
But every time I hesitate,
I say yes.
Even though our paths don’t align now
I wish you always the best.
I hope you drink your water,
That your bad days get better,
I hope all your scars will soon be healed
For the good and the better
I know our paths don’t cross anymore.
The divergence in a path that we thought was concrete
My love for you still remains.
To J and To B.