This Semester I Vow

This week, this week, well it marks a milestone for me. A milestone both physically and emotionally.  

This week, I am a junior in college. This week, I am a junior in college who is tackling the Spring 2021 semester. Next year, I am a senior. It truly is incredible just how fast time flies. I could say that the time flew by because I was having fun. But that would be a lie. Yes, sure, a lot of the time was fun. While, other times, I basked in the glory of misery. And when I refer to misery I am not talking about a double shift at work, no time to eat, two exam type of misery. I am referring to that type of misery when you physically feel the depths of despair flowing in your veins; a vicious, blood-sucking, energy- eating monster determined to destroy all motivation. 

So, in honor of that type of misery, I vow to myself this semester, I vow to myself this in this life, that I will have fun. I do not want time to fly, but if it does I’d prefer the fun over the misery. This semester, I vow to myself that I will not get stressed out and if I do, I will find a healthy way to cope with the stress. This semester, I vow to myself, that I will not only work hard, but play hard. This semester, I vow to myself that I will learn how to not only love myself, but how to love myself with passion. This semester, I vow to myself I will focus on me. This semester, I vow to myself that I will wear joggers every day, but style them with grace, elegance and a little bit of edge. 

This semester, I vow to myself that I will breathe. I will breathe when I am upset. I will breathe when I am overwhelmed. I will breathe when I feel the weight of the universe pressing down on my shoulder. And I will breathe to admire the small moments. Because if there is anything that I have learned these past few years, it is that the small moments matter the most. Small moments such as eating a meal with roommates, laughing with friends while doing laundry, or even heading home for a surprise visit to the family.  

I have made a lot of promises to myself over the years. However, I believe that these promises are simple. There is no underlying message to these vows. There is no series of epic consequences if I choose to break my word. I made these vows to help me live life with more ease, and dare I say- a more carefree attitude. So, stay tuned, I’ll be back in a few weeks with an update.  

Xoxo,  

The girl sitting at her desk…. in joggers  

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