The moment
When your body shakes,
Your heart beats out of your chest,
Your hands cry in fear.
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When your mouth wants to scream,
But not a single sound is heard
And you’re too afraid to speak out,
Too afraid to not obey.
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When all you can do is satisfy
As quickly as possible,
So you can get the hell out
To rush home and tell everyone no one.
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After washing my body
To erase the taste of him off my skin,
I drank every last drop
To erase the memories from my head.
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I laid there on my bed
Regretting every moment of that night.
As tears run down my cheeks,
I pray something will bring me to sleep.
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The next morning,
When my best friend asked how I was,
I had to utter the ultimate lie,
“I’m fine.”
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I wish I wasn’t so afraid that night.
Maybe I would have spoken up.
Maybe I would have just walked out.
Maybe, maybe, maybe.