The whispered promise that I refuse to believe yet so desperately cling onto Â
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I wander through life grasping onto the rays of bright warm light of love that edges its way through the cracks Â
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Running from the demons that remind me that these eclipses of light are only that, temporary,
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I cry out to those around me searching through the soft tissue of their heart hoping to get stuck in the folds and engulfed in their comfort. Â
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As I rack through the trauma that has taken control of my mind, I tuck away the moments of happiness Â
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I etched the words into my side Â
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The black ink a reminder that I am in fact loved Â
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That although I search desperately and feel as though I drown in the thoughts of rejectionÂ
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There are little murmurs from those I hold closest that they do love meÂ
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That there is nothing that will end that acceptanceÂ
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That they hold me, the broken ceramic pieces in the palm of their hands and carefully put them back together Â
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Smile at the creation that they knew I was Â
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And say Â
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I love you.