It’s really hard sometimes to feel that everything will be okay when you are having a tough day, week, or month. This past week was pretty rough for me, and during these moments of worry and/or sadness, I tend to have a hard time believing in myself.
All my achievements don’t seem as prominent in my mind when I am going through a particularly uncomfortable moment. I just feel like I am going in the wrong direction without particularly reasoning through the logic of my thoughts. Sometimes, to get out of this, I have to remind myself that I am capable, I am worthy, and that I can get through this moment.
At some point during quarantine, I was absolutely done with the situation of not being back on campus. I remember that it felt like I was at rock bottom, and all that I wanted to do was to get out of the mindset that I had. I knew if I changed my perception of the situation, quarantine would eventually not be so bad. I got myself up, managed my time a bit better, started a new hobby, and hung out with my friends (with social distancing). All those decisions eventually made COVID much easier to handle.
During Thanksgiving break, I was reflecting on the parts of my college experience that weren’t as enjoyable while also thinking about finding an internship for the summer. I felt like it was a crucial moment for me because I knew that I needed to make changes to enjoy and make the most out of the college experience that I had left. I then decided to be inactive in one of my clubs for the upcoming semester, and I put the work in to apply to many companies for internship opportunities. The spring semester has become much more relaxing in some ways by not needing to worry about one more club, and I finally got an offer for a summer internship that I am extremely proud of and excited about.
After every single struggle within the past year, I have noticed that I didn’t give up and, instead, I showed up. I was aware of my needs, and I took the steps that I knew were going to benefit my life in some way. Right now, I might not be feeling as confident or as happy, but I can always look back and remind myself that I didn’t give up back then. I just have to trust in the fact that I can take care of myself right now as well.
We all got so far because we are capable enough to get through any of the difficulties that come up in our lives, so why shouldn’t we believe that we can do the same exact thing in the present or in the future? I believe in ourselves to get out of any tough or uncomfortable situations and live the lives that we want.
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