I have been thinking a lot about the concept of “starting fresh” this year. I am by no means a new year resolutioner, but I sometimes get stuck on the idea of how I would like to change things up in my life. This being the final semester of my undergraduate degree I want to finish things on a high note. I want to feel as if I have done everything possible to make the best of these last few months in “Laradise”. No regrets, no holding back.
Recently, I have felt stuck in a rut when it comes to creativity, motivation, and confidence. My routine has become so stale that I struggle to find things that excite and challenge me. I get frustrated with the little things and fail to see the big picture in a lot of situations. I want this to change.
“Do no harm, but take no shit” is a challenge for me, but something I am willing to try. Senior year is a time where everything is changing. I don’t know where I will be in the next few months. I don’t know who will be by my side after graduation in May. But I do know that I will begin taking the steps to focusing on me. My education, my career, my life. I have spent far too long worrying about others and “coming to the rescue” for people who wouldn’t do the same for me. My “starting fresh” sounds selfish, like I only care about myself, but it is time to focus on me. Time to put effort into a person that I deal with everyday. So no, this isn’t a new year resolution, it is a promise to myself and my future.