No one could have anticipated this past weekend’s events, and our entire community has been rattled with confusion, fear, and grief. Many of us, myself included, may be unfamiliar with the reactions we are having. After consulting a local psychologist and following up on her information with research of my own, I would like to offer some facts about the mourning process that apply to any form of loss. Read if you feel they could be of comfort.
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It’s okay to be selfish for a while. Take some time to yourself, and don’t worry about being a little “rude” for these first days. This is your time to cope.
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Any loss is valid; no matter how well you knew someone, if you are grieving, it is acceptable and natural.
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As a supporter, words like “I’m here for you” mean very little. Actually reach out and make definitive plans to meet with the mourner.
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Tears are healthy–they release chemicals responsible for anxiety, irritability, aggression, and emotional disturbance. Cry, cry, cry.
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Time does not heal all wounds; time builds acceptance and coping methods. There is no pressure to feel better by a certain time.
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Guilt and anger are normal, even when inexplicable or directionless.
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Your close friends may not necessarily know how to help you, so reach out to those who can, starting with campus resources: 805-893-4411 for 24/7 counseling; or go directly to the CAPS headquarters in the pink building across from Theater and Dance.
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Therapy and counseling do not mean you are crazy or abnormal in any way; these are support systems of specialists who can help explain your perfectly rational feelings.
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Sometimes those you would not have expected can become your biggest supporters, so take people up on offers to chat.
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Although it hurts, often directly discussing the subject of grief brings more peace than avoiding it.
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Expect random bursts of returned sadness, even long after the event. Grief comes in waves.
Finally, do not feel guilty for participating in things that bring you joy; live for those who no longer can.
To those whose lives were cruelly cut short this past week, we will never forget you. To everyone suffering in the wake of this catastrophe: with broken hearts, we can and will rebuild each other and our community.