How many of you have been told that college will be the best four years of your life? Some say it’s because of the freedom, the parties, the teachers, the experiences, the road trips, the football games, the concerts, the dorm life. While I have been enjoying every minute of every day I have spent at the University of Florida, college means something else to me: a time to discover myself. What makes me, me? The following quote deals with that very concept:
Later that day I got to thinking about relationships. There are those that open you up to something new and exotic, those that are old and familiar, those that bring up lots of questions, those that bring you somewhere unexpected, those that bring you far from where you started, and those that bring you back. But the most exciting, challenging and significant relationship of all is the one you have with yourself. And if you can find someone to love the you, you love, well, that’s just fabulous. – Sex and the City
I’m all about looking for love, but how the heck am I supposed to do that when I’m still figuring myself out? How can I be strong for someone else, when I’m still learning to be strong for myself?
I have learned more about myself in the past 4 months than I have my whole life combined. I’ve noticed that I’m a shy person — I need at least one buddy to talk to wherever I go so that I don’t feel super awkward. I’ve learned that I like folk rock and pop music. I realize that makes it sound like I enjoy banjos…I don’t. Think more along the lines of Colbie Caillat, Michelle Branch, Natasha Bedingfield.
I’ve learned that when I feel sad, I become super quiet, and if I’m home alone then I’ll look up depressing quotes. Thus, I learned that the best remedy is to surround myself with fun people in a social, public setting…I won’t cry in public, so I’ll save myself the tears.
I include too many details in my stories, giggle easily and get stressed when I’m rushing to class (which is every morning). I enjoy working out and burning calories, but hate running and squats.
I prefer to text, not call, and I can’t stand it when people brake repeatedly when driving for no reason.
How about you?
This summer, I am going to study abroad in Paris, France for 5 weeks. I’m excited to completely immerse myself in another culture, one that celebrates life and happiness. But most of all, I’m excited to embark on my personal journey.
I know absolutely no one in a country and continent I have never been to. I will test my strengths, identify my weaknesses and discover everything else in between. And if, by the end of it all, I can meet a wonderful guy beneath the Eiffel Tower…I won’t complain.
I’ve met a lot of people and been to several different places in my life. Each person and relationship has brought me to the exact moment I find myself in right now, writing this entry. Thank you to everyone. It’s my time now. When will you start yours?
Xoxo,
QQ