I Believed Him

He said he wanted to go out with me. I believed him. 

He said he liked me. I believed him. 

He said he wanted to be my boyfriend. I believed him. 

He said I had a nice smile. I believed him. 

He said you’ll meet my family soon. I believed him.

He said he loved me. I believed him. 

He said I looked nice today. I believed him. 

He said he cared deeply about me. I believed him.

He said I looked better if I wore dresses. I believed him. 

He said I was the only girl who made him feel special. I believed him.  

He said I looked better without makeup. I believed him. 

He said he wanted to move in together. I believed him. 

He said trust me. I believed him. 

He said he wanted to marry me. I believed him. 

He said he wanted to have kids together. I believed him. 

He said I was starting to gain weight. I believed him. 

He said he didn’t mean to cheat. I believed him. 

He said he wouldn’t do it again. I believed him. 

He said he was sorry. I believed him.

He said she was a coworker. I believed him. 

He said he loved me. I believed him. 

I believed him. But it was all a lie. 

The sad and unfortunate truth about life is that at one point or another, we come into contact with someone who has malicious intentions, will gaslight us, manipulate us, full on lie, and make you feel like you’re the one with the problem. If you’re currently in a relationship, feeling stuck, know you’re not alone. Reach out to a friend, family member, or a professional if you feel comfortable, but please don’t stay in an abusive/toxic relationship. You deserve so much better, because you are so much better. You deserve to be treated with respect and kindness. As cliche as this sounds, life will go on, and before you know it, you’ll find that person you’ve been hoping for and dreaming about, and the person who gaslighted you will be some little blip in your life compared to what’s to come. I know life is hard, but stay safe.