Sometimes you need to feel every wretched emotion. When the pushing on through no longer seems healthy, just stop. In this moment, let yourself feel. To rise, to erupt, to let all the overcoming emotions sweep aside the knots and ropes formerly binding up each emotion—albeit negative or positive.
Am I healthy I wonder? Is it okay to feel? Am I too self-absorbed, or rather, am I beautifully self-aware?
To stop myself from some of the above-listed rapid-cycling thoughts that had arisen over the past week, I did the most mundane of tasks. I went food shopping. When I first walked into the store, I was surrounded by flowers.
I immediately knew today was a day I needed to buy myself flowers.
After searching for a solid five minutes, I settled on some small blush roses and three strands of baby’s-breath. I finished my food shopping and drove myself home. Now as I write, I smile at the flowers sitting on top of my desk.
Why do you need to buy yourself flowers sometimes?
Well, first off, you do not need to buy yourself anything to feel pretty or together. If I could legally pick fresh flowers, I would have done so, but because my options were slim, I bought myself flowers. To me, buying myself flowers represents giving myself a gift, reminding myself that I am beautiful, and reminding myself of my independence.
Would I love it if a close friend of mine brought flowers to my home? Surely, I would. But my friends are far away, and furthermore, I do not need to look outward to find the happiness I can produce internally.
So when you are having a rough day, remember that sometimes you just need to buy yourself flowers.
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