I may be only twenty years old, but my body has never failed to surprise me as I age and venture further into âbecoming a womanâ. Sometimes Iâll have an itch, and in the area that I go to scratch, there is â poof â another new mole or other questionable bump. Itâs like diving right into a book without ever reading the back: you never know what youâre going to find. What you thought was going to be a romance, might turn out to be a horror.
And man, my body has scared me countless times.
Itâs like in that scene (you know the one) that is in almost every horror movie. You know something bad is coming, youâre waiting, youâre stressing and then pow, it happens. And then there is a series of thoughts that run across your mind.
1. Couldnât I have gotten a little heads up?
Listen up, people. Even though it is technically your property, your body isnât exactly loyal â itâs sort of a traitor. It hardly ever does what you want it to do, and in the case of finding new additions, it usually doesnât have the decency to warn you about the little changes it makes.
2. I would rather die. How do I remove this?
This definitely applies to finding stretch marks, or cellulite. Why the heck is it there? Why must you appear all because I showed a little weakness, caved and ate a damn cookie? Itâs not fair.
3. Okay, itâs not ⊠that bad.
I donât know if I have just gotten used to it, or if Iâm in denial, or if I just overreacted, but itâs not the worst thing that I could find. Itâs definitely not a surprise moldy dish that I forgot in the back of my fridge for two weeks, or an old, worn sock in the bottom of my soccer bag. But itâs certainly there, and Iâm going to have to make the best of it.
4. Hold up, could it be cancerous? Do I have a freaking tumor?
I once found a bump in my head that was getting bigger every day. I had everyone I knew touch it, rub it, look at it and it wasnât until my mom slapped me upside the head that I found out that it was just another damn mole. See? Scary.
5. Itâs actually kind of ⊠cute.
If I look at it from a certain angle, itâs actually kind of visually appealing. That new mole on my shoulder, it kind of looks like it wants to be touched. And touching is ⊠sexy, right?
6. Well I canât do anything about it, so Iâll just have to live with it.
At least until I win the lottery and have access to all of the plastic surgery my heart desires.
7. And then you go ahead and forget about it and weeks later, it shocks you all over again.
My body is a temple. And a two-faced BITCH.
On a side note ladies and gents, try to remember that everyoneâs body changes. Your weight might fluctuate over the years, you may develop stretch marks as your muscles or curves grow, you may find some cellulite and you will definitely find some new moles, skin tags, etc. as you grow up. But try and remember that itâs only life, and you just have to go with it.
Xoxo,
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Your fellow hot-mess of a Golden Hawk